It has been a hard week in this life, mothers day is in a moment and I really have no reason to keep living, except for the betterment of my children. As time drags on and there is less and less money then I am worth more dead then alive. This makes me confused. There were three deaths in my life this week. When your classmates start dying it is an odd thing. I really am not sure what to do. I just keep going, hopeful that the next step will be better..