Thought I saw a glimpse of the sun…

but I was wrong.. I saw the p-sych guy on Monday and after all that crap, he wants to do the same thing all over again that does nothing but make me throw up. HE DOESN’T LISTEN.. the PA says we need to go through him because he is a man and they won’t listen to her because she is a female.. I am so done.. she is fighting me on this.. but I don’t want to be in the middle of all this crap.. all day yesterday my largest plan was to get everyone to where they had to be so I could take a nap.. ten am and I was hopeful to take a four hour nap.. pitiful.. I want my life back.. he isn’t even happy with the pain meds that I just got to the right level for all the shit that is broken or whatever.. there is just no reason for him to be involved.. only going to cost me money and lots of time either vomiting or pooping or both and sleeping because the PA wants me to take enough of the anti-nausea medication to keep the medication down which just makes me a sleep..
I want my life back.. I want to be able to go out and not be afraid, I want to get a job and not have to worry about my HIV status.. or anyone else to have to worry about it.. how does it feel to want..
who cares..


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